I’ve always been a pretty private person. It is not like me to open up and share such a private moment in my life. I had a good life, great family and friends, great job.I managed to achieve to live a fairly straight and narrow life. No drugs or alcohol or drama. I never asked God for much. Like most young women I dreamed of being married and having a family, like my mother had. She was married to my father for 35 years before she died of cancer.
In 2003, I faced the most terrifying time in my life.I could have never anticipated this crisis. I realized quickly that I was totally on my own to face this evil before me. The police, my family, my friends, absolutely no one could help me or keep me safe. I prayed relentlessly, I begged God to please let me live long enough to raise my children. I had 2 boys aged 9 and 6. I was also 71/2 months pregnant. I knew Jesus was with me.He is the only one, I knew would never abandon me. I would imagine my self to climb up onto his lap, like a little girl getting onto her fathers lap, so he could cuddle me and tell me everything would be okay. No matter what he would not abandon me.The angels he sent me to watch over me, and guard me in all of my ways brought me great comfort as well. However I had to face the fact that I might not survive this and Jesus would then take me home. I begged God to please see me though and begged him to let me survive this so I could raise my children. That’s all I wanted please just give me enough time to raise my children. I can’t even explain the terror. For as Terrified as I was, reading Psalm 91 gave me more comfort then the fear that was so deeply embedded in me.
On Christmas day 2003 I gave birth to my 3rd son. I named him John Micheal. Michael after St Michael who protects us from the malice and snares of the devil. Nine years later I am still here. I’m still scared some-days. It has been a very slow recovery. I am here though, I’m alive and well raising my children. Thank you Jesus. xox
1 He who dwells in the shelter of the Most High, who abides in the shadow of the Almighty, 2 will say to the LORD, “My refuge and my fortress; my God, in whom I trust.” 3 For he will deliver you from the snare of the fowler and from the deadly pestilence; 4 he will cover you with his pinions, and under his wings you will find refuge; his faithfulness is a shield and buckler. 5 You will not fear the terror of the night, nor the arrow that flies by day, 6 nor the pestilence that stalks in darkness, nor the destruction that wastes at noonday. 7 A thousand may fall at your side, ten thousand at your right hand; but it will not come near you. 8 You will only look with your eyes and see the recompense of the wicked. 9 Because you have made the LORD your refuge, the Most High your habitation, 10 no evil shall befall you, no scourge come near your tent. 11 For he will give his angels charge of you to guard you in all your ways. 12 On their hands they will bear you up, lest you dash your foot against a stone. 13 You will tread on the lion and the adder, the young lion and the serpent you will trample under foot. 14 Because he cleaves to me in love, I will deliver him; I will protect him, because he knows my name. 15 When he calls to me, I will answer him; I will be with him in trouble, I will rescue him and honor him. 16 With long life I will satisfy him, and show him my salvation.